Series of Fortunate Events

It was a backbreaking week, and I know it'll continue because the Frosh Solidarity Night will be on June 16 and I have to attend or else they'll cut my grade in orientation development in half - though I'm not so sure. But when a day's laborious, it means something good happened also.

Yesterday was our recollection day. No classes but only to reflect inside the contemplation room. It was fun, I did feel happy and did understand some of Brother Gene's lectures about life and finding your purpose, though I don't feel a bit passionate. You know, I'm depressed to think that I'm losing my passion just because of my irony and philosophy in life - it's hard. Well, as most of us did, I didn't play around because I was eager to learn more about my spiritual needs. It's not that I lack... or maybe I do but it's bothering me because whenever the facilitator would tell us something about God's grace, my philosophical side was arguing and I was hating it. Soon I eliminated all my philosophical side and found myself acting nonsense and clumsier. But it's fine, I still feel so confused but the recollection was fine, I did realize some 'unknown' things.

This morning, I saw my highschool best friend Carmela. We were riding in the same jeepney so we had a little talk. She was studying in UST taking AB-Political Science and she was wearing a uniform. Too bad for her she didn't also like it - good thing my school's not expecting us to wear uniforms. We were talking and talking about our classes and she said she had a Philosophy class that made me so envious because I don't have a Philosophy subject. By the way, I found out that Philosophy is my passion and when I finish my course, I'll study it and I'm sure of it. I was still talking when my mom said we had to go because the LRT station was near, so we bid our good byes.

Classes were back from the independence day and recollection day break as if I haven't been studying for millions of years and it was tiring but I feel so fine. I finally realized my crush for that irregular classmate was washed away by an unknown wave so I don't feel so self-conscious anymore when NatSci class arrives.

After class, my friend Joan and I went to SM San Lazaro because she asked me if I could accompany her to the LRT line 2 as she needs to get something from her uncle there. We went there only to eat and laugh out loud on some things. Then 'beep,' my ID was beeping again and the guard was sort of annoyed and not jovial so I didn't even dare to talk to him and just walked away without explaining because he didn't even suspected me and he was a 'guard'. I went back at my school tired as I still have to wait for my sister and mom at the main.

I already had a fanfiction account and probably I would put a link in my unpolished plugs section and hopefully this blog will help me collect readers. By the way, I still haven't posted anything yet, I was waiting for their anti-spam thing but I know I already have millions of ideas inside my mind to write. This has been another nonsense thing inside my blog. God, I'm feeling so tired. So fragile.