Interview With Yourself

We all have this some times in a day although we don't do it verbally, but only within our minds. I want to try and talk to myself, listen to the good, neutral and bad side of me. [By the way, I don't know the whole me. I can not even define myself in one word.] Combine the three so that I will have the response that I can not answer.

Why is it that some of my strongest aims aren't happening?
Because even you think it's impossible.

I want to try and isolate myself from the social aspect, but I really feel depressed and lonely.
Because the social aspect is one of the basic aspect in life. Without it, you'll be a forever idiot. Isolating yourself would even make you not understandable and I know you hate the inability to fruition. If you still want, just don't articulate with selected others.

Why is it that I'm missing something that I really don't want to miss at all?
Because that something might have touched your heart. You are contradicting yourself yet again. In your heart, your refusal to miss it is invalid. Mind is not included in this case. Just let it slip through you, time will give you the sense to stop without you even noticing it.

Why is it that I want some love? [This is not about having a partner, it is about the love for the world.]
Because you've found love yet you are unsure and uneasy since the things that connected you to your love is uncommon. Tacit knowledge and how you really feel is not felt.

Do you know how can I make my life fun?
For the kicks, smile... and for a happier life, try other things and go out in which you still know your limitations.

But I'm afraid. As if I don't want to do this.
Then try new things your interest has, but remember being afraid is like not going out of your own hole.

I think I like something I shouldn't like.
With this, that's why you aspire and dream for what you call ridicule. Stop expectations and just go with the flow until you clarify yourself. There is no such thing as you shouldn't like. Take things seriously and smoothly. This moment might just have a strong appeal to you so you shouldn't jump ahead of things even if you still haven't experienced it critically. Stop listening to mellow and repeating few songs over and over again as it makes you sicker. Stick to hard metal rock for a while.

Why is it that I can't do some things I really want to do?
Accept the reality and do it when you have the time and the strength. The big thing you should do is talk. Do not post your standards with the way you stand. Post it with the way you know reality.

I'm losing my interest in humanity and I kept on repeating myself now. What should I do?
Lift yourself, read and reflect. Do not think too much of the stuffs that aren't worth your time. Be confident and stop humility when it is not needed for God's sake.

I want to enhance my verbal expression, which is weak, but I couldn't find the right people to speak with.
Do not choose. People come by and be even happy that they want to speak with you. If you are flexible and considerate, you will know how to adjust at different types of people with different way of perception and that is also what you are trying to enhance. Verbal expression with concern and knowledge. Do not take pride and arrogance in self-progress journey. You only think they are weak since you are overconfident of your way of thinking. I require you to stop being like that and appreciate each and everyone's intelligence.

About me, about you, about us.
This would really work as one of your yearnings. Save it. You have said enough last time and it is really good. But promise you won't just abandon it if something didn't happen the way you always wanted it to be at the moment. Nothing is impossible, just have faith at your aptitudes. I have a strong conviction everything's going to be well and perfect in color, but not now. Not even sooner. We need to patch things up before we journey to this and I'm sure it will be a good ever after.

Feels great talking to my filthy brown monster doll. Not.

By the way, the picture was taken in a Hispanic house my late grandparents own. A very old house 24 or more years in existence and still in preservation from the old civilization. Home!