Collaborating Alone

My blog has reached its one year of existence! Even though I didn't really post much during the first few months of my blog. I couldn't remember the first name of my blog, first URL and it's first ever layout, but it has been the tool in releasing my anxieties. A perfect treasure to keep learning from my pasts as I write with all my heart out.

I haven't posted for more than a week. I've been too busy doing reports. I'm doing this all the time. It does not feel too good to cram sometimes, you could tell that you're all worrying for nothing and then you'll just notice that you're not changing at all. It's bad, I don't want to be cynical anymore.

I was able to forgive. I was able to be free. But the hatred stays and can never be abandoned if all you see in your head is darkness. And that's when you start to feel so heavy, heavy with all the bad wisdom you've learned because of keeping the black plant rooted in your heart. I want to see happiness once more.

I like it when I'm happy to see that I'm evolving. It's really fun to gaze with contentment, but it's not good when you see yourself looking too much forward to changes of your idle world that all the diversity is for your worse.