Time for Balance

Last time I attended in my DYNAREL class we talked about sharing our reflections on what time is it for you.

"A season is set for everything, a time for every experience under heaven;
A time for being born and a time for dying,
A time for planting and a time for uprooting the planted;
A time for slaying and a time for healing,
A time for tearing down and a time for building up;
A time for weeping and a time for laughing,
A time for wailing and a time for dancing;
A time for throwing stones and a time for gathering stones,
A time for embracing and a time for shunning embraces;
A time for seeking and a time for losing,
A time for keeping and a time for discarding;
A time for ripping and a time for sewing,
A time for silence and a time for speaking;
A time for loving and a time for hating;
A time for war and a time for peace."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

It's a wonder why I chose building. I said it's because in my age, I've already searched, and now I have to build my being, experience all things to have a beautiful life. I thank God for making me balanced and for making me understand the value of life easier.

A time to die, and make all the bad things be dead and be born to face a new and pure life. A time to uproot yourself from what you have experienced and a time to plant it to use it for the next experiences. A time to slay yourself to your goal and be healed by your success. A time for tearing your past regrets out and a time to build a new hope. A time for crying for the past and a time for laughing for the happy future. A time to wail for what has been dreaded and a time to dance for what has been rejoiced. A time for throwing stones and have seperate ways, forgive and forget, and a time for gathering stones for the new way with others. A time for embracing new ones and a time for amnesty when shunning an embrace and warmth. A time for seeking for your being and a time for losing the temporary ones to find the best one and finding a new satisfactory activity. A time to keep those memories and discard those that will make you distressed. A time to rip the wrongs and sew it into a better one. A time for silence with finding the truth and a time to speak the truth. A time to love yourself and all and a time to hate to balance your life. All of this times, you do it for war and peace, not only in your mind and in your sorroundings, but also in your heart and soul.

I walked and walked

until it stroke me

it was frightening

it was horrible

I don't want it to move

but I can't let myself stay

into nothingness and within

I can't let time be dead as me.

I need to build my own life and do little bit of changes, step by step and one by one, for me to claim-worthy that I have a fruitful one. I'm just afraid to see how would it be.