Current Addiction

I actually hate me when I discover something that I learn to love. I get overly addicted to it to the point that I wanted to throw all my overflowing ideas out about it because I'm soaked with confusions and theories and possibilities regarding it. I'm not talking about it romantically, but my loving to the some certain things that I wanted myself to get associated with differently.

Fine, I'm currently addicted to BLEACH. It's actually a shonen manga/anime. I have observed that, obviously, it is more focused on the male side of thinking that is why, somehow, my shojo mind flies with disappointment. But I like the dynamics; learning male mind is really hard, just like how men get confused with us, girls. At least, I could observe how egoistic frames are always involved with men. Isn't this picture I saw somewhere I forgot cute? By the way, there aren't any pairings yet, remember, it is a shonen manga/anime.


Thanks to google and to its direct source for the picture!

I've been thinking of buying the tankobon of this, but thinking I have many more in the line, let's just settle it to be a goal someday. It is now officially included in my all-time anime obssession included to Kare Kano (His & Her Circumstances), D.N.Angel and Honey & Clover.

I was actually in the mood of deep thinking that even my mom noticed it. This is the kind of feeling that I don't like when I'm getting attached to a certain thing. I get to feel heavy and feel bad if something will go wrong because of me and/or because of some natural things.

You see all that comprises a human brain in anything it does is covered with fear. In order to erase it, you should not feel afraid that something might go wrong. If you're afraid that something bad is bound to happen, you should never stick fear with it and it must be because you don't want it to happen. And the risk you have to notice is that it could be you who could pursue that and conquer your desires.

I don’t need to get protected, I can protect myself.