When will I See the Shore?

Merry Christmas! In compliment to my last post, I reflect Christmas as the time when I could relax and have a piece of mind. I don't know the way to find my own happiness. Idleness, emptiness and nothingness are the three concepts that destroys our life. I want to destroy them and fly away and bring my real capabilities for humanity.

Just this lunch, while I was drinking my last glass of water before standing, my stupid sensibility took its place and I've noticed something. With the cold water in it, I placed both my hands to cover the glass and I felt cold. I couldn't overpower the coldness of the water covered by my warm hands. I couldn't defeat it.

Somehow the cold water represents death and the warm hands expresses life. Somehow the cold water represents our inner shadows and the warm hands expresses our happiness that fights the three concepts of destruction.

My hands cannot outstrength the cold water inside the glass because they are one. I don't know how to fill my power in one part of my body and defeat the cold. The darkness is one; loneliness and depression all categorized into one negative force as our happiness can not patch itself and warm the agony. Death is sure to come and is the most successful to deliver fear and the life of a person in denial of anything around is at stake because of human complication, both literal and spiritual.

We are entitled for our own experiences and the outcome can either be a success or a regret. We cannot propose to make a straight path without knowing ourselves first, without knowing death first.